It´s different now

I am not gonna erase my topics, but now I am going to write in english also. I like to speak english, and it´s also a way to learn more,and to speak freely as well.
Today is a day before holiday, thank god I am going to rest a little bit, althought there are so many things in my head that sometimes I think that I will rest a bit more only when I travel.
But actually, I miss someone, who´s very far from me, and I don´t know what happened we chat every fucking day on the internet, and he desappeared. I try to forget him, I try to forget the way he looked to me, and how handsome he was, but I can´t. I try to forget out conversations, his voice, but again, I can´t. But I will forget him, I have to forget him.
I am kinda hopeless....because it´s so difficult for me like someone, and when I like it´s impossible.
I just hope for better days now....